Falling Off Cliffs...

Sometimes I'm not sure if I was pushed off,
I accidentally fell,
or I voluntarily jumped

"I feel like my life is deteriorating", I said to him (something I've said a lot in the past couple of months)
"Why, because you broke up with your boyfriend?", he replied
"No, because I'm just not where I thought I should be at this point in my life."
"Well I think this has all really humbled you, you're the coolest you've ever been Shauna."

Then I went home and threw up Carls Jr. in the shower from drinking too much in the past couple of days.

Guess that's cool though.

Outlines

Relationships are like puzzles,
at first every piece fits together perfectly,
but after awhile the pieces go missing
and it's never quite right again.

"I wanna feel like those girls in the movies"

Consciously as females we know that love isn't like what it's portrayed to be in the movies, but subconsciously I think deep down we think there is a slight chance that it could be. Unfortunately I have come to the realization that this is not the case, no matter how hard my little heart wishes it to be. Nobody will ever run after you in an airport, to the train, on the streets. After walking away, he won't look over his shoulder for you, he won't run after you, he won't care. The guy that hurt your feelings, abandoned you and shattered you.. well he won't see his mistakes, he won't apologize, and after a couple weeks he won't even remember your face... no matter how beautiful and the more desperate you are the uglier you become. He won't hold you when you cry, he won't tell you that everything will be alright. There is no knight in shining armor, there's just fucked up emotions and dealing with your own pain. Nobody will be there to catch you when you fall and if that's what you depend on then you'll break your neck falling on empty concrete.